Open Windows

My friend Scott sent me a twitter message the other day informing me that some random was lacerating me on some now no-longer-existent website called “Thanks for Sharing”. Honestly? It doesn’t surprise me in the slightest that I would end up on such a forum. As far as twitter and facebook go – I overshare – a lot! And I’m completely in a bit of mock-trouble for it all the time. I am completely aware that I set myself up for this kind of thing all the time. And this person (whoever he is) could quite easily have been talking about a lot of things that I’ve said over the past few months I have spent tweeting. Ooooh yummy!! I wonder which one it was?!!

Unfortunately by the time I got the message and was able to go and check it all out, both the website and the twitter account had been shut down so I’ve been completely robbed of the opportunity to get all boo-hoo dramatic and self-pitying about it. Scott seems to be upset enough for the both of us though, so I’m just going to work on the curiosity side of things and try to figure out what’s got this boy’s nuts in such a knot. more »

So at about two am a frog jumped on my bed and changed the way I view  the world as a whole.

Last night I was talking to the man in my life and trying to explain to him how even though I don’t need him in a co-dependent useless-without-you cos I can’t make my own tea kind of way – I still need him in a way where  “need” translates more to want in a mad-possessive certifiable way that should probably not be tested for the sake of the safety and sanity of those involved in the equation – so actually possibly it’s the same thing and my attempt to differentiate between the two is a redundant exercise. I dunno. Somewhere along the line I managed some sort of independence that didn’t really need male validation to ensure it’s continued existence. Or so I thought. My attempt to explain this to him failed I am sure – since even now I am doing a ridiculously bad job. more »